One thing I realized I need to get used to in college is being busy 24/7 and still feeling like you don't have enough time to finish everything...  To stay in the education program in my school, you need to have a 3.0 GPA. I'm definitely fooling around way too much, but my GPA isn't like a 2.3 or something.  I can definitely get it to like a 3.0-.4-ish depending on how hard I try, but I feel like I'll have no social life if I do this. 

I really love playing the cello, and it boosts my GPA b/c it's an easy A but is it taking too much time practicing and memorizing pieces?  This week, I de-activated fb for awhile, and I got so~ much done.  I really need more self-control.  It's definitely something I should pray about. 

My first class later today is cancelled.  Woopie~!

I have a crush on this boy Dan... let's see how that goes.  hahaha  But seriously I think I had a crush on like 5 guys since I've been here, and seriously, it faded within 3 days.  Or I got to know them better and they were just guys who'd be better as good friends.

Definitely, my closes friends here at GCC are Kristen and Liz.  I think I may have complained about Liz earlier on Xanga or on Weebly, but I really do appreciate her b/c she just 'gets' me, much like Mandy or Jenny do.  I really do miss Mandy and Jenny, and it's probably really bad to say that they're the only people back from home who I'm really close with.  I really want to get to know Bearded Zach, Kanoff, Hertland, and Sutchin better.  I'm definitely getting to know Bearded Zach a lot better, and he's super funny.  He's starting to loosen up and show his true sarcastic humor, which I love b/c it's very similar to mine.  Kanoff--I feel like I can relate to if I get to know him better.  Hertland is a bit of a jerk, but I feel like it's a mask for something deeper, and he plays tennis so I'm already inclined to favor him.  And Sutchin was a guy who I wrote off in the beginning as someone who I don't really care much about.  But on Fri, he played Catch Phrase with us, and we were just on the same page.  He reminded me a lot of my sister... hahaha.  I also, of course, want to get to know Dan better...  But I get nervous around guys who are especially athletic.  And I totally did not know this when I first met him,  [He has the most awesome smile!] but he runs triatholons and is on the track team, which is intimidating... I just feel like athletic people wouldn't like me. 

So I had a heart-to-heart with Kristen and Liz in the SAC yesterday until the wee hours of the morning, and they said that their first impression of me was that I was pretty.  It was really a shock b/c I never think of myself as pretty... And Liz said her sister thought so also.  It really is an eye opener and made me think of Stephanie Meyers- the author of the Twilight Series.  She says that Bella takes slightly after herself concerning the reaction of boys to her when she went to college.  Meyers never thought of herself as beautiful, but she goes to college and everyone says that she's pretty.  There is one boy in high school who I think thought I might have been pretty, but I don't want to mention his name b/c I know some people from my high school are subscribed to this xanga [and it's a very low probability that they would read this post ... but still].  This guy I liked too, but he was definitely a partier.  And he has invited me, but [nerd alert coming up] he would always invite me to ones on Sat nights.  As president of the youth group, I should be present for SBS [Saturday Bible Study]. 

Just 2 hours ago, Rose awkwardly asked me if she was a close friend of mine, when I said off-handedly I made some good friends here.  I didn't know what to say, and I had to do some damage control when she took some offense but s'all good now.  phew!  What does she expect, though?  She's always in her room studying it up [which I admire b/c I do not have that much self control], and we never have heart-to-hearts. 

This week is going to be hectic w/ an exam Fri I MUST do well on, a cello recital, cello lesson, rush [popcorn parties and first formals], a bunch of school work, clubs, and socializing.  I think I'm gonna have to hold off socializing until the weekend.  Well, this is what's coming up--not looking forward to it...

<3 Soo  [That's what they call me in college- lawl.]

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I forgot to mention that tonight was the first time I ever successfully french braided my hair myself!  I was so excited.  It's not perfect, but not horrendous either!  :D

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I also want to give kudos to Obama.  I am not a Democrat in any means, but I feel he should be commended for trying to bridge the gap and bring improvements upon the Native American Tribes' lives and relations with the United States.  This effort I feel will not only help them but us as well.  Anyways bad blood is just that--bad.

I have to admit that when I was looking for a college I didn't think that I wanted to go to a Christian college, esp. a hardcore Christian college like Grove City College.  I really just wanted a college where I could play video games and have an easy time in classes. 

When Mr. Bowditch aske me what I was looking for in a college, I lied.  I said a small school, maybe Christian, but Rutgers is definitely on the list.  He actually recommended the school I am attending.  The beautiful campus and really affordable price made me want to come here.  I never thought I'd make it in.

I got here, and I realized there is A LOT of work.  It's not busy work.  I feel like I'm the stupidest one in class sometimes.  I'm always behind and there's a quiz every day.

Also, there is no diversity here (as in race).  I feel like a lot of my English teachers give me wierd looks because I'm a korean girl majoring in English.  They also assume that, because I have a Korean name, I'm from Korea... I'm totally Korean-American.  In fact, I identify myself first as American, not Korean.  It's frustrating when some teachers are extremely stereotypical to the point of being racist.  For example, in public speaking, we have to give resident expert speeches.  I wanted to do it on the cello.  I presented this topic to be approved, and she forced me to write a speech about the differences in Korean and American culture.  I told her that I was born and raised HERE.  fucking racist bitch.  I seriously can't do anything though because she's also my asian lit teacher, and I'm going to have to take several of her husband's classes in the future as well. 

The environment here has really made me doubt myself as an English major...  I seriously thought of just transfering to Rutgers and screwing it all.  It seems lately all of my doubts are being taken away--not by attending church but by attending Campus Crusade.  The speaker addressed the issue of believing our problems to be greater than God.  He also said that we need to stop diminishing ourselves--calling ourselves losers.  God sent his son to die for us, and we accepted his grace.  Why would He save losers?  For the first time, I heard someone say that we shouldn't be groveling fools 24/7 but confident sons and daughters of God.  I guess it was what I needed to hear.  The speaker said that those who wanted to stay afterwards to pray should if they were moved by the Holy Spirit.  I felt like I should've stayed, but I chickened out... surprise, surprise.  Also, I came w/ a friend, but that's just a stupid excuse. 

So moral of the story:  God died to save me.  I'm not a stupid loser.  OK... so all that's left is to live w/ confidence.  Yeah... easier said than done.

I forget where I heard this quote.  It reverberated some deep unnatural notes from my heartstrings:  "How did you spend your time today?  You were dying for that."

Once again, I'm updating like 2 months to update...

Well, school has ended.... which you probably already know.  (unless you live under a rock)

I went to Virginia.  Where I just chilled at our resort, went on a tour to DC, and went to Virginia Beach.  I also went to Busch Gardens in Williamsberg (sp?).  There, I rode this ride Griffon, which has a 180 degree drop.  It was si~ck!!  And I only had to wait 5 minutes because I went on the single person line.  And I rode in the front!  :D  On this ride you go upside down, and you also get wet if you're in the front.   Awesome~!

I also went to a mission trip to Korea.  :]  It was an interesting experience.  I'm not too good at speaking Korean so it was kinda hard communicating with the kids, but it became a lot easier as time went on.  It was very disorganized and I was supposed to be an assistant, but the teacher that me and the other assistant, David, were supposed to help became sick so for a while we were acting as the teachers.  Not everybody came out to morning devotion, and that ... frustrated me.  Because then the kids wouldn't come out either, but it was ok.  I understood... it was boring, early, and the woman who spoke every morning wasn't exactly exciting.  We were supposed to teach kids English, and at the end, one girl admitted to me that the only thing that she learned in the camp was the phrase "best of the best".   At least she learned something... *shrug*  The praise was really good, and I'm still talking to the kids I met in Korea so that's good.  When the kids left, the whole mission team stayed for another two days to go to Seoul and go on a tour.  We also stayed at a 5 star hotel, Koreana Hotel, and it was ni~ce! :]  And I finally understood after 12 days what a real warm shower felt like.... that was gooood.  :D  Also, in Korea,  [this is useless] I learned how to blow a bubble in a bubble in a bubble.  Huzzah!!!  lol.  And let's not forget all of those fun korean hand games.  lol

When I came home, it was that time of year again.   Yes, school was going to start soon.  That means... tennis preseason.  Which when translated, means death to Soojung and the freshmen.  :p  But this year it's a lot easier.  But I'm a little angry [okay... very frustrated] that Coach put me in 6th doubles and not 5th. Grrrrr....  And that e-mail Coach Fritch sent out saying sacrifice... I think everyone on the team sacrifices something for the team.  For example, Mandy couldn't go to the US Open because of a tennis scrimmage.  [Which I'm not sure if the Coach realizes that me and Anna, my doubles partner, won the match 6:3]  And I can't go rafting or help out with the car wash at church because of WHAT?  You guessed it... tennis preseason.  So that e-mail Coach sent out saying SACRIFICE was totally uncalled for and rude.

On a brighter note, I recently went to Molly's Sweet Sixteen.  :]  She drove us [8 people] into the city in a totally swee~t limo.  :D  At the city, we went to Dylan's Candy Store [or is it Shop] and Serendipity's (sp?).  It was madd fun.  I can't wait until Catherine's Sweet Sixteen.

My sister came back from Korea 2 days ago, but she's already gone again at Lesley's house.

I still didn't finish my summer work, but I'm close to done.

This school year I'm going to get straight A's.... easier said than done.

 Soojung

We will create a civilization of the Mind in Cyberspace. May it be more humane and fair than the world your governments have made before.
John Perry Barlow

supernal \soo-PUR-nuhl\, adjective:
1. Being in or coming from the heavens or a higher place or region.
2. Relating or belonging to things above; celestial; heavenly.
3. Lofty; of surpassing excellence.